Lost in a nightmare

I had so much time, literally that was more than enough which on utilising wisely could have been the turning point of my life. But what did i just do? 
Nooo.. Look at me now! Completely shattered and lost. Where is my time! What now?
All these time, hell wasted. What all i could have done with those "time".  What left is nothing. Just nothing.
Even though i knew that if i wasted all the oppurtunities i had, i was going to be screwed, i am going to regret it again and again. And thats what i am doing right now.
And all along no one around to whom i can completely wither out. Like am the one who is completely hearing cursing and having all the sympathetic outviews.
Now, Today. I have nothing with me. Even I Think, Why am i leading a meaningless life? All good for nothing fellow. All the bad omens inside me giggling and laughing at my worst. How worst and bad i am.
What all i do is logically illogical things. Completely hopeless me aside. I wanted to give all the shit out of myself, like burn my asses off till i get succeed, but now everything is out my hand. Nothing left. I understand now, who is the master! They are not the one who kicks his ass overnight, but those with that extrapower. That extrapower is in the one compiling of planesheets made of woodpulp. Ultimate masters.

Dated- 13-8-2017
Isha💙