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Maybe this one be an essential thing somedays right?? A goodbye speech! Damn i dont know why do i think about stuffs like this. I seriously dont want this so called 'speech' to be happened, but i cant insist. Even i prepared it for someday when he would say- "I know its late.. we had so much dreams & promises together. But now its time. I dont see a future together. Lets end it up.....!"
I dont know what would i say at that time. May be i would take longer to retain my conciousness. perhaps i would say-
"I did know some days this would happen. Before you go let me say something to you..
I dont want to wither out all the memories right now. But trust me we seriously had good times together. Yea we dreamt, made promises, we had bit small & cute fights and a lot more. I seriously had a much good time. Beleive it or not, i never know if i could ever love someone as i loved you or like someone else would ever come in to. Even if that happen that person won't be worth up to you. You were my good, better and the best. And no one could ever replace you. I cant explain how much i love you; how much i did.. in a pretty small time. I dont even know how all these happened even though i know-you were not of my type. You were the extreme opposite of what i was. A complete mirror image of mine. Just too much opposite stuff. We used to say; Opposite attracts. May be some destiny was also included in these stuffs. You were not the perfect one. But the imperfections in you have made me fall for much of the time.
You just said we dont have a future toghether. Yea we thought about it for all the time at the first & at this late time, i dont know why does that bothers so much.
You know what, who ever knows me have always advised; just have less intensity, make it less seriously so that you dont have to regret. But all the wordings have never influenced me. Even for once i never decreased my love. May be the so called "intensity" have increased in all these times..
I never had a dream, in which you weren't present. I have never seen me in future without you. I have always wanted you to be mine. I have always wanted me to be yours, whom you be proud of. But today i respect you that you have been brave. May be you have grown. I respect. May be you had a struggle inside yourself all these time. May be just because of me, you have been caught by all these stuffs. May be i have blamed you for so much time when i did feel lone, when i aggrieved your ignorance and all. Trust me that wasn't intentional. Just was my love for you that made me up with those. Even i had stuffs like 'Unloving' sort of things felt with me, i have tried to be strong & think from your point of view. I wont blame you or hate you ever (How could i do that??). Just i wanted to say sorry for whatever i did, that you didnt like me doing or hurted you for long. I do apologise. And yea I dont want you to forgive me because that doesnt make any differenc in us. Sorry if i troubled you in any way or the other.
And i should thank you for bearing me for long. For accepting my stupidity,those foolishness,those stubborness and all. Lot of times you may have felt the anger towards me. Thank you for being quite at that times. I always said you have the complete right on me. I should say you haven't misused it or even you never used that power at all. I'll always be greatfull to you. No matter how much you hurted or you made me cry or just break down within my knees, these have never been a matter & i always did overcome with these. And that was only because of the "LOVETHING"
Again thank you.. Thanking you for so much of stuffs. Even you have been with me for small time and some other time when i needed your comfort you weren't there, for which i would definetly thank because all that have made me even stronger. Thanks for all those memories that you literally lended me for some time that i would never forget nor ever i'l be able to. Thank you for your precious time that you spend out for me. Thank you for those beautiful love texts and the chats which would always be close to my heart. And Thank you for all those small and big things. I never know what i would have been without your shadows. There was never a day without a thousand million times you crossing my head & mind. Its the nature that said anything wont last longer.
I dont know if its too late or too fast. All i know is everything is going to change for me. From now maybe no waitings, no daydreams & nothing. Things are going to change. I dont know what and how the things are going to be. It has left so much of scars and marks in me that is not going to be healed so fast. I wont say that i would miss you or i would remember you. All i do say is those bundle of sorrys and thankyou's.
Inbtw of that so much of disimiliarities you tried so hard to make me myself. You didnt know about me so well, may be you never tried. Yea something was inbtw us. And finally i would like to say that you were the best thing that ever happened with me. I have wished that no power in this world should try to seperate us; untill this day..
Youll never know how much i loved you, how much i adore you, how much did i admired you, so did how much i wanted you and today i dont know how i am going to move on. But trust me am strong i am not broken. I have my wings. I'll try to fly much harder. Lets check out what the almighty have planned. May be something good is waiting to come. But let me clear it again, you were and you are the best. No good can compare up with you. Wish me good, Thats all you can do. Just dont forget to take my sorry's and thankyou's with you. I'll try to retain my heart that you stole..."
Too big thing right.. Its my uncontrolled tears that made too time to scribble & some stuffs got inside. And today when i right this, nothing is on its way. The count of my tears that flowed out is immense. I can't imagine a day that i would seriously face it. Just i dont want this to happen. And i cant imagine myself in a mood swing because of the nervous breakdown. I dont think i wont be able to handle it. Since Imaginary part is these much hard, reality would be more sucking sour..
I dont know what would i say at that time. May be i would take longer to retain my conciousness. perhaps i would say-
"I did know some days this would happen. Before you go let me say something to you..
I dont want to wither out all the memories right now. But trust me we seriously had good times together. Yea we dreamt, made promises, we had bit small & cute fights and a lot more. I seriously had a much good time. Beleive it or not, i never know if i could ever love someone as i loved you or like someone else would ever come in to. Even if that happen that person won't be worth up to you. You were my good, better and the best. And no one could ever replace you. I cant explain how much i love you; how much i did.. in a pretty small time. I dont even know how all these happened even though i know-you were not of my type. You were the extreme opposite of what i was. A complete mirror image of mine. Just too much opposite stuff. We used to say; Opposite attracts. May be some destiny was also included in these stuffs. You were not the perfect one. But the imperfections in you have made me fall for much of the time.
You just said we dont have a future toghether. Yea we thought about it for all the time at the first & at this late time, i dont know why does that bothers so much.
You know what, who ever knows me have always advised; just have less intensity, make it less seriously so that you dont have to regret. But all the wordings have never influenced me. Even for once i never decreased my love. May be the so called "intensity" have increased in all these times..
I never had a dream, in which you weren't present. I have never seen me in future without you. I have always wanted you to be mine. I have always wanted me to be yours, whom you be proud of. But today i respect you that you have been brave. May be you have grown. I respect. May be you had a struggle inside yourself all these time. May be just because of me, you have been caught by all these stuffs. May be i have blamed you for so much time when i did feel lone, when i aggrieved your ignorance and all. Trust me that wasn't intentional. Just was my love for you that made me up with those. Even i had stuffs like 'Unloving' sort of things felt with me, i have tried to be strong & think from your point of view. I wont blame you or hate you ever (How could i do that??). Just i wanted to say sorry for whatever i did, that you didnt like me doing or hurted you for long. I do apologise. And yea I dont want you to forgive me because that doesnt make any differenc in us. Sorry if i troubled you in any way or the other.
And i should thank you for bearing me for long. For accepting my stupidity,those foolishness,those stubborness and all. Lot of times you may have felt the anger towards me. Thank you for being quite at that times. I always said you have the complete right on me. I should say you haven't misused it or even you never used that power at all. I'll always be greatfull to you. No matter how much you hurted or you made me cry or just break down within my knees, these have never been a matter & i always did overcome with these. And that was only because of the "LOVETHING"
Again thank you.. Thanking you for so much of stuffs. Even you have been with me for small time and some other time when i needed your comfort you weren't there, for which i would definetly thank because all that have made me even stronger. Thanks for all those memories that you literally lended me for some time that i would never forget nor ever i'l be able to. Thank you for your precious time that you spend out for me. Thank you for those beautiful love texts and the chats which would always be close to my heart. And Thank you for all those small and big things. I never know what i would have been without your shadows. There was never a day without a thousand million times you crossing my head & mind. Its the nature that said anything wont last longer.
I dont know if its too late or too fast. All i know is everything is going to change for me. From now maybe no waitings, no daydreams & nothing. Things are going to change. I dont know what and how the things are going to be. It has left so much of scars and marks in me that is not going to be healed so fast. I wont say that i would miss you or i would remember you. All i do say is those bundle of sorrys and thankyou's.
Inbtw of that so much of disimiliarities you tried so hard to make me myself. You didnt know about me so well, may be you never tried. Yea something was inbtw us. And finally i would like to say that you were the best thing that ever happened with me. I have wished that no power in this world should try to seperate us; untill this day..
Youll never know how much i loved you, how much i adore you, how much did i admired you, so did how much i wanted you and today i dont know how i am going to move on. But trust me am strong i am not broken. I have my wings. I'll try to fly much harder. Lets check out what the almighty have planned. May be something good is waiting to come. But let me clear it again, you were and you are the best. No good can compare up with you. Wish me good, Thats all you can do. Just dont forget to take my sorry's and thankyou's with you. I'll try to retain my heart that you stole..."
Too big thing right.. Its my uncontrolled tears that made too time to scribble & some stuffs got inside. And today when i right this, nothing is on its way. The count of my tears that flowed out is immense. I can't imagine a day that i would seriously face it. Just i dont want this to happen. And i cant imagine myself in a mood swing because of the nervous breakdown. I dont think i wont be able to handle it. Since Imaginary part is these much hard, reality would be more sucking sour..
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