Dated 18-10-2016

I see myself struggling with lot of stuffs.  And everything around me sounds uneasy. I know i was not always satisfied with myself. I always blame myself of being ugly, unsuccesful, inappropriate, bad, worst and all the adjective defining the same meaning as the else. See am a failure. Why am i composed of that soo much gene i doesnt even require & why lot of genes are missing in me. I also know i am something different from all the others around me only because of that gene patternisation. I am just not satisfied as i feel low because of some of my activities, of that attitude, that stuff i have, that things i do, which i regret it after the action and much i dont want to do & leave those character from me. Just i want to be clean. The "I"  "I" thing is much more in my stuffs. I  seriously doesnt want to show myself. I doesnt mean myself to be shown as a looser. This i do because no one seriously criticise about me or its much more better to say everone just backbite. I need that opinioms about myself to reach my ear from their mouth. But its also true that i even dont like to be criticised soo much by someone. This is my case. All what i can do is just to critisise myself all the time.. and end up blaming myself fkr the birth..!