LOVE.... LOVE AND ONLY LOVE.

                   "Happy are those who have brought up the love. Happier are those who have earned a shape in their love & Happiest are those who own their love."       
    Stupid right?  Obviously these 3 things are entirely different. Anyway am not here to write the whole storyboard right now.
There are certain moments were you feel loved. Only on repeating 'I LOVE YOU' is not where you feel loved. There are few small gestures and moments that brings butterflies in your stomach.. Even some long texts, fast replys, coming up long way to see you uninformed, teasing and troubling you to core are just a "very few".
Seriously for me just small small things really matters. Even the smallest bye at few times just makes me fly in heaven and sit thinking about it fors hours cutting and screwing myself in the day dream.
Since i am quite "Imaginative", i just create a high core drama sequences out during the dreams. Sometime i end up creating a fascinating trip/journey together,  tie up some future scene. Plan the upcoming & so on which are incredibly funny. And all upon this blushing goes up for about 1000 KW. Everything is just so fruitful. Am in love with idea of the trip together, just not because thats that romantic; i see them with another eye, which is full of fights, non-stop blaberings & all. I go on and keep on talking about everything one after another, and he be like "Bas kar meri maa, khuda ke vasthe bas kar" ( just keep quite for the sake of god) And the playing some random song in the car deck, lipsing with it, being dramatic and masti.
So see here i am thinking of something that is definitely not going to happen. Still whats wrong in tieing dreams. After all it is the LOVE THING. Its this 4 letters that defines the universe.
My mom most oftenly says; you see her husband, how soft he is, how caring and loving he is for his wife and her family. Will any newcomer in the family would do such great things? He is so big at heart & so on. And with a signature dialog, "how can someone like you get a good guy? See, she was that smart and loyal and so she got such a guy who is pure & diamond, and now look at you....."
Since i dont give shits to these blabering all; i do is thinking, will my guy be so good enough?  So that days and years after people would still praise as they do now for others. Whatever being with your spouse around gives an extravaggent thing in you, even if it is your day dream. Think of some days when your partner would flirt with you in front of childrens and grand childrens in your old age. That is the perfect relationship goal. The perfect couple goal. The perfect one to last longer.
Cheers to all love and love longs...❤

Dated: 5-8-2017
Isha💙

The Unreal Me

You people know that i have posted the last few blogposts too late, Like after a long time. Even i didnt even get a chance to scribble. Sorry for making you people wait for long. So much of stuffs where going on with me. Many things that have bought new experiance. The real sip of being independent is what i took about half a spoon.
The months that passed where half fully of stress & tension, And where as the second part full of excitements, fun and everything. I am sure that the second part would no more come around with me again. It was truely an extrafabulous time. And again the months have arrived presenting the boredom, weirdness & same 2 rupee routine. All in these am the one who is pissed of so much. Where everyone is busy kicking their asses and working up a lot. Where as am the one who spend 75% of the day on the bed laying, sleeping and leaving the time behind.
The most of stuffs that happens with me are tough and with elastic ends. And ends up questioning myself why me? Things never goes well. Am tired of complaining myself. Even there are people who have 1000× times bigger issues than what i have; still i feel i have retreated from everything.
I try being unique. But ends up plagiarising and copying others. Lack of creativity and ofcourse confidence. Still i want to maintain the "U" thing within me. So i one has to deviate in each and every minute so as to stay away from the commons. But when you are being pointed out as you are one among those, all it feels is that you have lost your battle. The sound arouse loud inside as no i am the only one among the millon. Prep you fight. Let that be your motto. The million would turn the billion away.

Dated 5-5-17
Isha💙